After the divorce I have to return to my maiden name by French law if I ask the judge to very nicely ask my almost ex husband to give me permisison to keep his name and he agrees I can. I think I have had enough humiliation to last me a lifetime so I shall just revert to my own name.
So here I am kids to comfort and build a new life for, a smile plastered on my face and dreams and future plans that we made together smashed under foot . I am not even sure anymore if I was ever loved at all. After so many lies being placed upon lies I have no idea what the truth was if there was in fact any truth there at all, if he ever really loved me at all.
And that I think is perhaps the greatest betrayal, leaving me for always in doubt that I was ever loved at all. It is a pain I would not wish on my worst enemy. But there you have it life as they assure me goes on.